“Me Time” and Anxiety as a Mom

This has been a week! Both the kids have been sick, then I got sick too. We’re much better today (YAY) And my husband has had a very busy week at work.

Crazy mom week. At times, I don’t even remember who I would be if I wasn’t taking care of someone. I have always felt guilty and selfish for wanting to take time for myself, but when I don’t take time for myself, my anxiety builds up.

I realized this was becoming more of a problem when my husband was home with the kids all day while I worked last week. I don’t work often so when i do, it throws everyone off.

(I work PRN for a Plastic Surgeon)

When I walked in my house that evening, toys were everywhere, Brynn was naked, Hayden was watching YouTube, and lunch was still on the counter. I had a major anxiety attack.

My anxiety manifests as anger. I was angry at everyone for even being there. I was especially angry at my husband because Why couldn’t you just clean up a little before I got here?

Ridiculous.

He took care of my babies all day. Even though it may have been different than the way I do. That is OK.

Anxiety is a bitch, and it causes me to need control of every situation.

Obviously, I can’t control most things and this causes more anxiety and frustration.

This anxiety means that if I am at work, or working out, or at dinner with friends, I am running 100 things through my head about what could be happening at home.

I have had real improvement with daily CBD. But I still can’t shake the worry sometimes.

I consider myself a generally happy mom, but when I feel like this it is an eye opener that I need to remember myself.

My goals for the next month:

•Get a sitter and have date night with my husband

•Go to the gym 3x a week (and not worry about if Brynn is crying in childcare or not)

•Plan a time for my husband to have full control of the kids while I take a bath and drink wine (it’s my happy time)

What are some ways you make time for yourself?

How do you cope with anxiety as a mother?

Two sick babes trying to be happy 🙃